In the first week of my upcoming e-course, we'll be exploring our lives in photographs. Here's a photo of me from 10 years ago, taken while we were on vacation at Acadia National Park.
Who was I back then?
I was 27 years old. I'd moved to Seattle two years earlier and was living in a studio apartment in the Green Lake neighborhood. My rent was under $700/month (unheard of nowadays). I'd been with my boyfriend for nearly six years, and still hadn't gone overseas to meet his mother. A few weeks before this photo was taken, I'd started a new job, one I'd have for the next seven years. I'd recently lost about 50 pounds and my hair was still stick-straight. It would mysteriously go wavy about five months later and hasn't been straight since.
What do I see when I look at her?
Mostly, I see her many insecurities. Insecurities about her weight, her lack of education, her financial situation, her struggles to find a job she enjoyed. I see a young woman who doesn't know her own worth yet, who doesn't believe she deserves love, who doesn't trust herself to make good decisions. But I also see beauty, warmth, and tenderness. I see her innocence and her potential. I see her kindness, her loving disposition, and a spark of hope for all the future would hold for her.
What do we have in common?
We both love an adventure, but I take fewer risks these days. We share a similar style and aesthetic. Our values are much the same: honesty, loyalty, reliability. I'm still searching for my purpose in life, much like she was back then. Perhaps I'm still a little too concerned about "bettering" myself.
Are there any facets of her personality that I miss or wish to recapture?
Truthfully, I'm so happy to be 10 years older and wiser. Any of the traits I loved about her, are still a part of me. The only thing I can think of is that she was super organized and efficient. These days I'm more scattered, which tends to slow me down a bit. While I don't wish to recapture most of the type-A personality traits she had (life's too short), I do wish I had her knack for organization!
If I could tell her just one thing, it would be...
Relax. You've got this.